never enough sleep

Job: Manager at a retail store

Hours: 5am-1:30pm

Description: Physically demanding

I don't want to delve to far into my job but I will talk about how it relates to my training and life goals. First of all, I have a very physical job which involves being on my feet for 8 hours, running around, and heavy lifting. I wake up around 3:20am Monday-Friday, with the occasional weekend or overnight. This winter has been pretty rough, forcing me to wake up as early as 2:30. For the first few weeks/months, these hours were fun. I would come home and still have a whole day to accomplish things. After a while though, the lack of sleep got to me. I was averaging maybe 5 hours of sleep if I was lucky and it wasn't even a restful sleep. Somewhere around the holidays I just feel apart, mentally and physically. Then I became obsessed with trying to get enough sleep. I wouldn't make any plans on the weekends so I could sleep, I would take naps when I got home, and I would fall asleep on the couch at night. I had anxiety about not getting enough sleep. Finally, I think that I have found a balance. I am at the point where sometimes I sleep more and sometimes I sleep less and I can tell when I am really tired or just lazy. It is still a struggle though to get my wonderful husband to understand that I am not falling asleep on the couch because I don't want to spend time with him, I am just exhausted and literally cannot keep my eyes open!